dilate

hello me,
so this is self discovery?-

standing between mirror and bed
reluctant to witness
yet being a captive audience
to relief and issues unravelling
all over again
stuffed into some cupboard
way in the back
only to fall out and bury me
in crap
and childhood was forgiven
flaws dismissed
in that moment
frustration overrode
confusion dispelled
internal workings revealed
astonished
as everything was confirmed
and completeness overwhelmed

vaseline smears genders
into insignificance
when honesty juts out
like an exclamation point,
a pointing finger,
an arrow directing...
like instinct refound
tighten the straps
while what has always been
introduces me
to
myself.